Mean while we will work hard on raising the much needed funds for travel and agency fees. So for the next couple of months we will be busy-busy.
Tonight I wonder about Braska and Zack. I wonder how both of their days have been and I wonder if they remember us and also that we are coming back for them. with our last adoption it was so hard waiting between trips and then just waiting for a court date seemed like forever. Last night was such a difficult night for me. Much of the night I cried and cried just because of some comments that I received on this blog. I spent most of the night wondering just who hated me this much to upset me and also try to make me feel awful about adopting. In my heart I know I am a good mother and I know I will be the best mother to these two children. When both Patrick and I held them they held on tight to where we could not breath. So why would someone say I was an awful mother and they do not even know me. My heart is the kindest heart and I am always filled with love. I love people especially children and pets. Why would someone try and hate me so to hurt me? In my heart I try and not feel hate to anyone and at the moment I feel no hate only the feeling o wondering why. I know in this world we can not please everyone or make everyone happy. If you see each day I write I leave a smiley face :O)) And this is me :O)) I love to smile so crying is not me or will not be me. I want in this world to leave my smile to all when I leave this earth. :O)))
