All documents are complete and the last and final one the I800. As I went to seal the envelope just one last look inside. Removing the documents and carefully one by one reviewing each one I carefully placed them back inside. Hard to believe in this one Priority Mail Envelope holds the faith of the two little ones we have grown to love so dear. I wonder if the person opening the envelope only knew how our family has already prepared not only our home but in our hearts. Little beds are now being placed in their rooms with small stuff animals to lay upon their small beds. Names have been chosen for each child for the start of their new beginning. I have made several dresses for Braska and blankets for little Zack. Now at night they will be rocked, held and read to each night. Their heads will be kissed and they will be tucked in with their favorite toys. So many memories lay ahead for these two children and for our family. How blessed we are to have met these two children.
In the next couple of weeks we will try and raise the much needed funds to complete our adoption. Saving the money to adopt can be stressful. And I try to be very frugal about all. Today I read this passage from the bible.
"And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus" Phillippians 4:19
God has been so gracious during Chrissie's adoption and also Braska and Zack. Without the help of several people it would have been very difficult or maybe even impossible. I say this to myself over and over our Lord has lead us to these two children. And even when there were days of nasty comments, delays or set backs I know God in his time will guide us to them. I can not say that this will be our last adoption because I do not know at this moment. What I do know is that our Lord, Our God above has his plans or us all. And I will patience and follow his loving words.
Nightly when our home is silent and you can only hear the creaks of the house settling I stop to review photos of the children. I wished I had taken more but much of my time was spent trying to hold on to the two of them as much as I could. To snuggle and nest with them in my arms. As I unpack my luggage I think of what I worn each day during a visit. Trying not to cry I think and wonder about their days. I pray that they stay well and that they are healthy and feel no pain. CF is hard on a child and there is alot of pain involved daily. Seeing little Zack and watching as he tries to eat it is even difficult or him to do so. His little throat is raw from the Acid Reflux and his small stomach rumbles because it is filled with gas. Daily meds, daily therapy and the pain involved just breathing is hard. As taking a simple breath for us is so hard for both of these children.
Today as I drop this large white Priority Mail Envelope out the outside I place my :O))
Now all we can now do is wait and pray. And also raise these remaining funds. Again I ask for prayers each day for Braska and Zack, for our Family and the remaining travel funds for our second and final trip.